Food and presentation are both easy and creative, so they tend to be my source of joy when I have a busy schedule. This weekend, I went out to eat with my best friend and also decided to plan out the hair and nail styles I want for the fall. Seeing my friend gave me so much joy and reassurance because we have such a close bond. The feeling of unconditional love alleviates the areas in which I feel to be lacking, and makes me feel whole. Planning my hair, makeup, nails, outfits, etc. always brings me a sense of peace because it’s an outlet of self-expression and an art form. I think my goal-driven mindset is deleterious for me, because I don’t do many things for myself, and I give a lot of parts of myself up. I want to change that and feel whole all of the time.
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